It’s been a while since I wrote any music. Not that I haven’t wanted to, it just fell out of priorities with some other things in my life and work. Then the inspiration and drive to do it faded over time.
Because it’s been so long, it was really tough to get back into it. I spent days just messing around on the guitar, trying to find some interesting chord progressions and riffs. Some of them I saved, most of them I trashed.
I’m not sure why, but this one stuck with me. In the repeating progression I could hear a quiet start with a big build up. The lyrics were even more difficult. The music just lent itself to angry vocals but I had trouble getting in an angry mindset. I took inspiration from the times I feel anxieties or doubt about how good my music actually is.
I’ve been listening to a lot of Nirvana and old Foo Fighters recently, and this one definitely has a grunge influence. Curious to hear any thoughts.
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My head is spinning in circles it never stops
Sabotaging my thoughts
Scratching at the ceiling with fingernails
Bloody stomach in knots
It’s like a cancer now
Eating my insides out
I’m desperate to find my muse
But I can’t even find myself
I come undone
I come unglued
There’s nothing left
Nothing to prove